Happy New Year

Before a kiss

he sold me a pill

Before a kiss

we laughed
Before a kiss

we stayed up all night
Before a kiss

we danced

Before the kiss he held me
Before the kiss I felt safe
Before the kiss time was lifeless
Before the kiss there was nothing to take

Before that kiss he stroked me, in a way no other man would
Before that kiss submission enlightened me, unsure if I knew if it could

Then so,
So wet,
So hard,
We kissed.

"Nothing stings as sweetly

as the cut of your kiss,

here at my throat

You decapitate me"